When it comes to what I really want to delve into, is the topic on the various friendships that have led me to where I am today.
I will honestly admit I’m grateful for the presence of all the faces that have entered my life. No matter how bad our relationships are now, I still do believe that they all were/are still beautiful people. I thank them for many great memories that I keep logged in my brain, the mental photographs that I find myself smiling upon. Simple things, certain places remind me of the time spent with each other, all our insiders, all the laughter. You would have never thought such friendships that were so real-would become so unfamiliar. Its a shame. But it’s life. I’m not gonna sit here and cry about it anymore. I’m not gonna sit here, and be angry that all those times, have been taken for granted.
But I will sit here and be grateful. I will sit here and try to understand that when it comes to growing up..it sometimes means growing out of each other. For those who can grow up with each other. Well, I’ll call those golden treasures.
I’m still hurting, and who knows how long I’ll continue to hurt, but I’m slowly mending with or without closure. Picking up my pieces and focusing on myself–on my school work, on my career, on my relationships that matter now. I’m a tough girl to come by, and lately I haven’t been making it any easier for the people who truly love me today. This time I’ll let the past stand where it should. I won’t let follow me like a ball and chain. I don’t want to lose myself anymore, and I don’t want to lose the people who really matter in my life.